It's like a nightmare. You have no control of what's going on. There is no

way out and you it feels like no one cares. No matter what you do you're never good

enough. You'll always be useless, not good enough, worthless and hopeless. You're

scared and lonley all the time. No matter what You're doing or who you're with, the

feelings are always there. It feels like an endless circle of guilt, worthlessness, pain,

fear and weakness. You feel like there is no point in trying anymore. It's an endless

circle of failure. You feel empty, like you're not really exsisting. You're breathing,

but that doesn't mean that you're alive. It's when it hurts to smile, hurts to

laugh, hurts to breathe. Everything you do hurts, and there's no getting away from

it. No one understands what you're feeling. You're silent, but in reality you are

screaming for help and no one can save you. You're on your own for now on. Everything

you do leaves you tired. Things you used to enjoy, they don't bring any comfort to

you. The only thing that might bring relief is the feeling of the cold blade, the taste of

alcohol, the smell of drugs. People will try to take those things away from you,

but you don't let them. They don't understand what it's like.

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